POISON OR LOVE?
Why do we start a relationship? To be happy, to grow, maybe to find our other half and live in eternal peace. In fact, while our main goal is to feel better, some relationships have the opposite effect on us; it hurts and makes us feel bad.
These kinds of relationships are very tiring for the person. If you find yourself experiencing the exact opposite instead of feeling good in a relationship, I have bad news for you. The toxic (harmful) relationship that we have heard a lot lately may be the leading role in your life.
What is this toxic relationship?
In fact, it is a disguised psychological poison. The other party puts an invisible poison in the tea we drink. And while we drink that tea, we hardly notice the damage in our body. But over time, the dose of poison increases, one drop more every day. Now you are aware that something is wreaking havoc on your body. Another bad news for you. That tea has become a habit for you now. You can’t stop without drinking that tea in the morning, noon and evening. Your body is scorched by the damage, but you can’t do anything and stop drinking.
That’s exactly what a toxic relationship is. It is the name given to that relationship that causes emotional and physical damage that goes unnoticed for a long time, has a very destructive effect, that the person never feels good about, but that he can never give up, so to speak, that poisons you.
You run a lot, you wear out a lot, but once you see you are where you are again; You’re drinking that poisoned tea. Now you are starting to lose all your self and your values. That man/woman who constantly criticizes you, doesn’t understand you, or even insults you, poisons your soul. As you drink the poison, you continue to lose your self-confidence, blame yourself more and more, and feel more and more worthless. It must be worth thinking about why I can’t get rid of it every night.
You are always the one making the sacrifice, so you keep your own life in a corner because there is manipulation in this relationship, your emotions, thoughts and even your behaviors are constantly under control. Once you see, even you feel flawed and inadequate. Even if you do react, the answer you will get is “I will put them in your and yours.
I say this for the sake of our relationship”. However, in this relationship, each of your needs for intimacy, love and unconditional acceptance is unimportant. The focus is on their own needs. Now all your negative emotions come to the surface. Anger, unhappiness, uneasiness, fatigue.. You go back and forth in the same place. You always try to explain yourself but
the same discussion topics come up, no solution and no result. You become like that when you can’t even breathe while drinking tea. Because now you are faced with an inextricable toxic relationship that even you cannot recognize yourself.
There is another very curious thing. Why do we continue to drink a tea that we know is harming us? Although everyone’s relationship dynamics and self-perceptions are very different from each other, some thought patterns are the most important sources for a toxic relationship.
I put a lot of effort, will it be fixed? Can I still save? So what I mean is still believing that things can change.
Is this because of me? In fact, this thought pattern comes from our childhood years, when our parents devalued us. Our parents’ rejection of our feelings causes us to grow up with a sense of lack, a fault-seeking perception in ourselves. *manipulation!! The other party tells us: “There is no problem in our relationship, you are raising it”
Not being able to afford the period of mourning: whether the relationship is as toxic or harmful as it wants, after all, after every ending relationship, there is a period of loneliness, a period of mourning. Some people see themselves as weak in dealing with it.
Now we know what a toxic relationship is and what are its causes. How do I get rid of what’s left? Knowing these reasons is extremely important. Notice the signs. Accept. Noticing, trying to change and starting to face the facts. You can realize the damage of the toxic relationship, the poison we drink and get rid of it. Be honest with yourself. Yes, you spent a lot of time and effort, you were very hopeful, but that feeling is raging. Don’t silence him. Do not look for branches to hold on, remember that every branch you hold on to is in your hands. Most importantly, be yourself.
It doesn’t make much sense to stay in that relationship where even your true self is rejected.
Remember, continuing to drink that poison with the hope that both parties will change one day without believing, loving, valuing and making full effort is only possible with a toxic relationship. We, on the other hand, should live the relationship for pleasure, for happiness.
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Psk. Nida DAL İDİKUT